I was talking to fans
And one of them pulled me
aside and said
"We never met but I swear that
you know who I am
I been through a lot
I don't know how to express it
to people
Don't think that I can but I got that
Mansion CD on rotation
That's real for me Nate, you
do not understand"
It's crazy for me
Kids hit me up, say they slitting
they wrists on the daily
This music is more than
you think
Don't book me for just entertainment,
it's entertaining
Hearing these parents,
they telling their kids
My music is violent,
you gotta be kidding me
I guess that your definition
of violence and mine
Is something that we look at differently
How do you picture me, ah?
Want me to smile,
you want me to laugh
You want me to walk in the stage
with a smile on my face
When I'm mad and put on a mask,
for real though
I mean, what you expect from me?
I'm tryna do this respectfully
They say that life is a race
I knew my problems'll probably
catch up eventually
I do my best to be calm
How you gon' write me and tell me
you'd slaughter my family?
That's just a glimpse to the stuff that
gets sent to me
These are the parts of my life that'll never see,
woo
I am aware it's aggressive
I am not here for acceptance
I don't know what you
expect here
But what you expect when you walk in
a therapy ses sion, huh?
And told me her life's full of drama
Said that her dad is abusive
Apparently he likes to beat on her mama
I got so angry inside
I wanted to tell her to give
me his number
But what you gon' do with it, right?
You gon' hit him up then he'll
start hitting her harder
That's real
These kids, they come to
my shows
With tears in they eyes
Imagine someone looking at you
And saying your mu sic's the reason
that they are alive
Sometimes, I don't know how
to handle it
This type of life isn't glamorous
This ain't an act for the cameras
You see me walk on these stages but have no
idea what I'm dealing with after it
I put it all in the open
This is the way that I cope with
all my emotion
I'm taking pictures with thousands
of people
But honestly,
I feel like nobody knows me
I'm trying to deal with depression
I'm trying to deal with the pressure
How you gon' tell me my music does
not have a message
When I'm looking out at this crowd full
of people I know I affected?
Ah, I got some things in my life,
I know I should let 'em go
Let me jot it down,
let me take a mental note
I put it all in this microphone,
think about that for a minute
What is the point of this song, I'm just venting but
what you expect from a therapy session?
Therapy,
That doesn't worry me
I know I handle some things immaturely
I know that I need to grow in maturity
I ain't gon' walk on these stages
in front of these people
And act like I live my
life perfectly
That doesn't work for me
Christian is not the definition of
what perfect means
I ain't the type to be quiet
I ain't gon' sit here in silence
If I wouldn't say what I say to your face
Then I promise you I wouldn't
say it in private
I am not lying
People go off on my page and I'm trying
to quit the replying
But this is ridiculous
I'm passionate man,
I really mean what I'm writing
You want me to keep it a hundred? Okay,
I'll keep it a hundred
I see a whole lot of talking
on so cials
But honestly,
I don't see nothing in public
I kinda love it, yeah
"Why don't you write us some
happy raps?
That would be awesome
All your music is moody and dark, Nate"
Don't get me started
You wanna know what it's like if
you met me in person?
Listen to my verses
This music is not just for people
Who sit in the pews
and pray at the churches
I won't reject it
I don't expect everyone to respect it
I don't expect you to get my
perspective
What you expect from
a therapy session?
I mean,
I think sometimes people
they confuse what I'm doing
I write about life,
I write about things that I'm actually dealing with
Something that I'm actually experiencing,
this is real for me
Like this is something that personally
helps me as well
I'm not confused
about who gave me the gift
God gave me the gift and he gave
me the ability to do this
And he also gave me this as
an outlet
And that's what music is for me
When I feel something,
whether it's anger
Um, it's a passion about something,
or frustration
Like this is where I go, this is,
that's the whole NFrealmusic thing man
This is real for me, I need this, this
is a therapy for me
